just came back from Bintan.
that place is SICK. damn dirty.
(in every sense -COUGHS-)
PASAR OLEH OLEH IS CRAPP.
no good food, no nice shopping.
thinking back, it just makes me
even more nauseous.

but the company was the best. (:
took tons of peektures and polaroids.
hugging C in bed to watch teevee
was all that i ever ask for.
i love that feeling. warm and fuzzy.
because i know that he is right there.
right there in my arms. its real. (:

had buffet breakfast
but the food tasted weird.
head down to the beach which was
magnificent. took more pictures. (:
C and i want to get a BUGGIE.
its probably the most fun thing there.

sometimes,
i feel that C doesnt dote on me enough.
because he's not a person that shows
his affection for someone openly.
as in he doesnt sugar coat his words
neither does he hugg hugg kiss kiss.
but its the little things he do that makes
me understand that he loves me more
than any other girl in the world.
like ensuring my safety
(physical and SPIRITUALLY),
ensuring that i take my meals regularly
so that i dont fall ill and be healthy.
and because of all these small yet
intricate details that once again assure
my heart that i've made the right choice.
that this man here would be the one
to make me happy and that i would do
anything and everything for him.

most importantly, i know that i'll love
no other man but him and him only. (:

my baby is enlisting in four days.
the anatomy is starting to feel sore.
the next time i get to see him after
tuesday is the following sunday.

sweetheart, dont worry.
everything will be fine inside.
i know you will be homesick.
i know you will wanna come home.
i know you will hate it inside.
but baby, you will be fine.
everything will be over before you know it.
and i, johanna toh yun hua, will
be out at the gates waiting for you
each time you come out of that
horrifying place. i will be there.
and i will give you a big hug and kiss
each time you book out.
to erase all your weariness.
its a promise that i'll keep. (:


/whatever you choose,
we will always have each other.
four days.